This weekend I changed cell phone carrier so in order to keep contacts I have to enter it into the new phone.
I have purposefully decided not to add Dane's number into the new phone. Severing one of the last ties I have to him. It is a bittersweet moment and one I am not fully sure that I want to make happen. What if we do want that elusive friendship that everyone always claims that they will have? That just spurs a valid question: Why would I want to be friends with someone who has so unrepentantly hurt me?
Aside from the cheeky response that everyone subconsciously craves some kind of pain. The honest answer is that I wouldn't want that friendship. One of the things that I have been working to accept is that the friendship side of our relationship was almost nonexistent. It is nearly impossible to rekindle a friendship that never truly existed to begin with .
Which only justifies that I need to let go of his number. If only letting go was as easy as it sounds.
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